For the love of…PIZZA


The year of 2016 is going to end and my Instagram is full of engagement photos. It’s great that friends are getting hitched and people are in love.

Because I have too many weddings to attend, I need to eat so clean like, real clean to shed some weight. Just to look perfect in the dress. But soon, I’m so going to eat pizza like it’s a party!

I’m so so in love with pizzas!







He brought her home to meet his ailing grandfather. His grandfather was very weak, yet, he still lifted his head slowly to look deeply into her eyes. She sat down beside his grandfather so that he can have a closer look at her.

“You look very smart and knows how to carry yourself. You must be a very determined person and won’t easily give up. You crossed your legs while standing because you are very reserved and that’s why you are very careful with whatever you do. You smile from your heart but there is sadness in your eyes. Your clasping hands showed that you have something that you can’t let go but at the same time, you are trying to believe that you can.”

She cleared her throat and said, “Thank you, Ah Kong.”

Ah Kong reached for his grandson’s hand. And he held his Ah Kong’s hands tightly. Seeing the bond between grandfather and grandson brought big tears to her eyes.

His Ah Kong looked at him and said, “Treat her right. Your words and actions will last her a lifetime. Your bitter words, that day you were angry with her, those times you ignored her, when your friends are more important than her, the times you don’t walk with her to front door, she carries that in her mind.

She is beautiful because behind her, there is pain. She will remember that you made her happy. Wipe her tears, stroke her hair, support and be there for her. She will remember that you treat her like a lady, even when she is wrong. Teach her how to let go of things. You are now a big boy. You have to learn to love, to compromise, to nurture..the kind of man who makes a good husband and father.

If she loves you, be a good man, because if you don’t, you will lose her in the end…”

Ah Kong taught him and her about a good man. Her eyes misted over, and tears rolled down her cheeks. His grandfather began to breathe heavily. “Rest, Ah Kong, rest. I know. I know.” Ah Kong was struggling for each breath and in a few minutes, everything stopped.

He’d gotten emotional but she was glad that he’d shared it with her. She wiped away his tears, reaching over, hugged him and cried together. She wanted to comfort him, but words are hard to come by. Saying the right words is the hardest thing for her but Ah Kong’s words definitely impacted him and her.


A grandfather holds his grandchild’s hand for a while and their hearts for a lifetime.



Sitting right beside you, counting every independent unassisted movement.

Sitting right beside you, thinking how much I used to dislike you.

Sitting right beside you, realizing that you are a new person.

Sitting right beside you, I am your physiotherapist and friend.

I knew you were the most determined, the most hardworking patient, but nothing could ever prepare me for what was about to happen.

I thought the best gift I can give to anyone in this world – time. Something that money can’t buy.

I thought, I truly thought I did enough.

I was wrong.

I never knew this would happen.

Truth is, we can never be prepared. Nothing is enough. Enough to save a life.

I think I lost a patient. A friend.

Just so you know, I would give anything to listen to you talk on and on and on again.


It’s funny how things can change so suddenly. 

Why are you dying to be perfect?


Sometimes, putting thoughts into words would hopefully makes sense on the next day.

Dreams. I day dream a lot. Like, a lot. However, night dreams about falling off stairs is a common thing for me. The word “perfection” would be the culprit behind it. So I was thinking about it.

Well, people say that I deserve all the good things in the world. As I could just thank them shyly for being so lovely with their words, I can’t help but think that hey, I’m not all that they give me credit for. I’m a mess, a bundle of flaws too. It is amazing they see how God works in my life and how lovely, that they see me in a much better light.

But deep inside me, I am so imperfect.

Why are you, why am I trying to be perfect? Why are you, why am I spending time beating myself up for not being good enough? Why are you, why am I not able to give myself a pat on the back when someone compliments? Why are you, why am I comparing myself to better/smarter/more beautiful people than me? Why are you, why am I thinking about issues that are absolutely unnecessary but I do so anyway?

I have to admit that I strive very hard for perfection but again, who is God if I am perfect? God is perfect and I’m just that imperfect. “Perfection” is just a myth.

So here’s to everybody: Stop trying to be perfect. Focus on the whole human package and appreciate the faults. Find the beauty of imperfections and enjoy how you got there. Because the flaws of a person tell a great story, an unique story. Be this beautiful mess, stitched up with good intentions, and inspire others.


Sorry, I am not perfect.

Dear Students,


Though each of you are wearing the same uniform, each of you have your own versions. The most common scene will be students staring at their phones and not communicating with friends. That’s the latest trend eh?

So many students with so many different characteristics. Some are happy, some are sad, some are rude. Some of you always ask for assistance in studies, some of you decided to keep quiet ALL the time.

But because of you, I learn too. As we are discussing, I learn about myself, I learn about you all and I learn about conflicts in general. When you kept quiet, I would learn how to smile and reassure you that you can ask any questions at any time. Sometimes I do get annoyed with student’s behaviour, but I learn that you could be struggling with many things that I may not know about. So I treated you the way I would want to be treated during a bad day.

I learn to accept all of you and treat you like equals, like the adults. I believe that people will learn more through interaction than long winded lectures.

So I want to thank all of you for giving me a chance to learn from you all. I know I can never learn enough, just like how I can’t teach you everything. But I hope you learn to make it on your own and go change the world.


Your lecturer.


In learning, you will teach. And in teaching, you will learn. – Phil Collins


Life Is Precious.

I miss your jokes. I miss the way you held my hands. I miss the way you smiled back at me as I cracked some bad jokes. I miss the way you loved me in your own ways. Because of you, I look so fondly at every father that passes me by. As if, somehow, I was staring into your eyes again.

Time with you was never enough. I found myself not looking at all the pictures and videos that we took together. I miss you. I wish you were the one who walks me down the aisle, that you could have watched me marry the man that I love and seeing your grandchildren running around the house.

Today, you reminded me to lead the life the way you did. To never give up, to fight on, to never fear and always always be kind to others.

Today, I find myself missing you.

To those who are reading: Treasure the moments with your loved ones everyday. Take the time to capture moments and create memories. Yes, there would always be a “tomorrow”. It may not mean so much to you now, but it means a lot when pictures and videos are all you have left.


Love when you can, while you can, as much as you can.

P.S. I Love You

I was bored tonight, and I decided to watch this movie. I read the book so many years ago, but movie was good too. Still makes you cry!


My darling Holly,
I don’t know where you are or when exactly you are reading this. I just hope that my letter has found you safe and healthy. You whispered to me not long ago that you couldn’t go on alone. You can, Holly.
You are strong and brave and you can get through this. We shared some beautiful times together and you made my life… you made my life. I have no regrets.
But I’m just a chapter in your life- there will be many more. Remember our wonderful memories, but please don’t be afraid to make some more.
Thank you for doing me the honour of being my wife. For everything, I am eternally grateful.
Whenever you need me, know that I am with you.
Love for ever,
Your husband and best friend,

Too touching. I need to sleep. Good night. 😥

“Sometimes there is only one thing left to say, P.S. I Love You….”

How to stay motivated at work

I am excited to work almost everyday. So here am I, giving you tips on how to stay motivated at work!

Positivity. You really need that. I know it is hard to stay motivated. Perhaps you are bored or tired. Or you lose interest in whatever you are doing.

1. Never be afraid of failure. If fail, then fail la. Try again lor. 


2. Focus on the your work, not counting your time. I guess I have the passion la.


3. Eat breakfast like a king, before starting work. Most of the time I don’t, but now I’ll try la.


4. Create a to do list. Mines is like infinity to do list. Adui. 


5. Take care of yourself physically too. Lets be honest. I run because I don’t wanna look bulat.



6. DAYDREAM like me! Or maybe a joker. haha


You just need to be more positive like me. You only live once, so live it to the fullest. 🙂


Happy people shine brighter. 

10th August 2016


God tests our faith in many different ways, by allowing you to go through hard times in the wilderness in order to know what is in your heart. And today is one of those days.

The story begins…

I was called for an interview in UPM two days ago, but I wasn’t able to go to KL today because I was appointed as invigilator for today’s examination. I was very lucky to have a good boss who immediately approved my emergency leave so that I will be able to attend the interview for my masters studies.

After boarding the train in the morning, UPM called to tell me that I am not qualified to do my Masters in Sports Science because my previous degree is not related to Sports Science. Immediately, my heart sank. I didn’t know what to say and I just said, “Okay, thank you for informing me.” I was already on my way to KL and the interview was sort of cancelled.

“Have faith, Ivy, have faith.”

I nearly broke down, prayed and asked God to open up a way for me. So I called UPM to ask if I could talk to the head of Sports Science Department. The lady, at first, was very reluctant to speak to me but I kept begging her to give me a chance to speak to her boss. And she agreed. As my uncle was fetching me to UPM, I was filled with anxious thoughts and disappointment but still trusting God for the best.

So as I walked into the interview room, there were around 15 interviewers sitting in front of me. I was pretty nervous but I calmed myself down with a prayer. All of them are either Professors, Assoc Profs or Drs. Very nervous. But I answered all of their questions confidently.

Finally one last question from them: What are you working as? You are very confident and knowledgeable.

Me: Academician also.

Them: *applause* Now we know why you are different from the other candidates. We would love to have you as our student. We will discuss with the Senate committee about your case.

Me: Thank you very much! I look forward to hear good news from you!

Remember: If our faith is weak, it may not be obvious when life is going smoothly and we aren’t challenged in any way. But when hard times happen, the true nature of our faith will be revealed. Only through difficult trials come our best blessings from God. Thus, always have faith and have faith. Thank you God for today!


Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.


Standard Chartered Marathon

So my fav thing to do when I’m stressed out will always be running. I did not enjoy running until I was very depressed in 2008, and I discovered running actually helps clearing my mind. It is not because I wanted to run away from problems, but because running helps me to think better. I’ve been regularly running since then.

Physical activities helps your brain to produce endorphins – chemicals in the brain that acts as a natural painkiller and reduces stress. Running also improves your body strength. Strong body = strong mind. A good run sometimes makes you feel like a brand new person.

Running taught me about life. Just like when you registered yourself for a marathon, you will have an exciting event to look forward to. Yes, you may feel a little anxious if you could actually reach the finishing line. As you begin to run, you just have to trust yourself that you can do this and put away all fears. After running for some time, you may begin to feel some soreness and you feel like stopping. And you begin to wonder how far did you just ran or how far are you from the finishing line. But you just have to keep going and push your limits. As you make it across the finish line, the emotions you feel at that time will be incredible.

It is amazing how pain leads to strength.

I endure.

I overcome.

And I own the finish line.

I hope you will also find a way to manage your stress.


If you just want to run, a km is enough. If you want to change your life, run a marathon then.